Decluttering To Let Go
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Decluttering To Let Go

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From time to time, I do decluttering around the house. Anything I don't need and is still in good shape, I give it away while I throw away this stuff out of condition.

A few months ago, I did that with a large amount of clothes. I gave them to my sister. Since she has a daughter, a seamstress can help make adjusts to them to fit my niece.

I did it with my school and college books. I gave the language books to the library of the Faculty of Languages in Luxor.

Today, I was doing a little bit of decluttering. I found three big notebooks. When I used to study English on my own, I started writing new vocabulary in them, along with explanations and examples. Later on, I'd use the new vocabulary in writing entries. That helped me improve my English, to be specific, my English writing and reading skills. I don't remember when and why I stopped doing that. Writing down does help even if I don't look at what I write again. That was exactly what happened; I haven't looked at those notebooks for a long time.

It's why I was considering throwing them away, but part of me doesn't want to let go of them. I don't know anyone who might be studying English and interested in having them! Discarding them sounded like throwing away a lifetime. Reminding myself of why I declutter helps me stick with it.

I intend to declutter to free up space in our house. However, the main reason has been to set my mind free from things. Holding these memories eats me up. Through decluttering, I'm trying to teach my mind to let go of the memories attached to those things and accept them as a part of the past. To silence the questions and guilt buzzing in my head. The questions that would never get answered. I have a last look at these things and then, get rid of them.

Hopefully, gradually, this physical decluttering will help me let go of this emotional burden that sits heavily in my mind and controls us.

(I'm falling asleep and I can't review what I've just written. I'll do it tomorrow. See you!)

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