One of the haunted thoughts I have is that my depression would scare people away from me. They would slip away one by one until none of them would be by my side. I know no one likes to deal with grumpiness and sadness, especially over a long period of time.
I don't expect people to fix my mind or to cure me. All I need is to have someone who would say: "I'm here for you," while holding my hand tightly. Someone who is patient; no matter how long my healing takes, they wouldn't walk away. I don't want someone who would promise to support me but when things get hard, their promises turn into water to a sieve.
Not necessarily a lover or a partner. Just a friend or whatever the relationship is. A person who would have my back while going through pain.
I think you have someone like your family members! They'll never leave you.
I feel you. I often share my thoughts with people just to get it out, without expecting them to take any action. Nevertheless I sometimes struggle to start talking, because I don't want to be a burden to them and spoil their mood. But I try to keep in mind that I would also prefer them to tell me if they were having a hard time, rather than try to keep it within themselves and struggle alone. Having somebody who will listen and be there for you is really priceless
@yumiyumayume, I have family members on whom I can count but I can't vent. A lot of my secrets they don't know about!
@Renby, I feel the same. I don't want to be a burden on anyone. I had times when I messaged friends but later, I deleted the messages before they were seen because of this thought.
Someone told me they would vent to people they don't know. I feel I need to talk to someone close to follow up with each other, without having to tell everything from the start every time I talk to someone new. And, yeah, I'd like them to share their lives with me too!