It's one of those nights when everything feels so heavy.

My depression takes control and I don't know where to hide away.

I wish I could sleep and never wake up again.

Or to have all my memories erased, as Kate had her memories erased in the Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.

But when Jim tried to erase his memories of hers, his mind resisted. I'd be doomed if my mind resisted the erasure. I'm talking about it as though it was possible. It's not and I have to live with every memory.

But I'm tired and life is painful.

I didn't choose this life, so at least let me have the choice to leave whenever I want. And I want to leave. Now.