Bent Benout
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Bent Benout

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She was in Giza square, looking for a gardening store to buy some plants. She wanted some basil, mint and lavender to put on balcony. She read that lavender reduce stress and anxiety, and she was in need of that. After touring the area, she didn’t find any, especially since she’s not a resident of that area.

Giza is as big and crowded as Cairo. You can find anything you need there, only if you know where to look for it. Only supermarkets and clothes shops are everywhere. As for local grocery markets, they are usually hidden somewhere in locales.

One day, she needed to buy batteries for her hearing aids. She had to walk 44 minutes to find a medical supplies store. Uber and whatnot are not an economic option to her. To use public transportation, it needs good navigation skills which she wasn’t certain she obtained. She didn’t want to end up in another city. Walking with the assistance of Google Maps is the safest option for her. At least, if she walks onto wrong path, she can turn back to take the correct direction without hurry.

While walking around, she found a man who was selling some second-hand shoes and watches on the pavement. As well as that, he was fixing a shoe. She stopped by him to have the holes in her shoes fixed.

The man started breaking the ice, asking her where she was from, her job, etc. He flattered her for her beauty. He asked whether she was married. She answered: No. With his eyebrows raised, he wondered; "Are you still bent benout?"

She froze for a moment. Bent benout means an unmarried woman, but at the same time, it implies virginity. In a conservative community like hers, virginity represents purity and humility. If a woman is not married, and hasn't been before, she’s expected to be a virgin.

She’s not married but shes’s not bent benout either. That was why she froze. She had to swallow her shock and fear. She only said: “I’m a Miss”.

She lost her virginity in a relationship with a man a few years ago: a man who didn’t think twice before approaching her. He didn’t think about what she would do if that relationship didn’t work out.

But she’s the one who deserves the lion’s share of fingers pointed at her. She didn’t question herself before going all the way. She deluded herself that she had found the right man. She rushed without absorbing the new experience slowly, at her own pace. And when she did it, she felt ashamed as if she was stained forever.

Now on, she has to keep a low profile. She can’t take in a demonstration supporting one of her causes. She can’t dare to publicly disagree or speak up against anything. She has to pay the price for her impulsiveness. She has to live in fear, scared to death that her secret might be revealed unwillingly. If, God forbid, this happens, it will be a scandal not only for her reputation but for all her family. And probably, she will be forever alone since no man will marry her unless he doesn’t care about traditions and culture.

Based on a True Story

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