年中でのうつ病のせいでの死亡率が高い月は１月らしい。わたしは驚いていない。にしても、自分にチャレンジを出題した。単純なチャレンジなのにわたしにはまだチャレンジよ。毎日食べる。数日何も食べないから「食欲」の気分が消え去りはじまるよ。食事をとるのを忘れた日があるけれど、ちゃんと寝る前に何かを食べるのを確かめた。一ヶ月が経って、チャレンジに成功だった。

今月のチャンレジも簡単だそう。YouTubeの動画を見ない。YouTubeは時を盗むサイトだよ。まるで指の間の隙間から滑る砂のように、日中が思わずに消える。わたしはアディクトであることが前々から知っていた。変えたい。変われたい。正直、この投稿の書く時はもう今更w。でも今はチャレンジの開始。退屈の得についての聞いたことがある。想像力を上達したりね。今でも、短編を書く欲が積もっている気がする⋯

Apparently the month with the highest mortality rates from depression is January. I'm not suprised. Even still, I set myself a challenge. It's simple, but to me it's still a challenge. Eat every day. After not eating for several days, the feeling of hunger begins to disappear. Although there were days where I forgot to have a meal, I always made to sure to eat something before going to bed. The month passed, and I succeeded at the challenge.

This month's challenge also seems simple. Don't watch a YouTube video. YouTube is a site that steals time. Like sand slipping through the cracks between your fingers, daylight thoughtlessly disappears. I've long known I'm an addict. I want to change that. I want to be able to change. Truth be told, by the time I'm writing this it's already too late. But the challenge starts now. I've heard about the benefits of boredom. It improves your power of imagination, among other things. Even now, I can feel the desire to write a short story building.