Yesterday I came across a job offer that would suit me perfectly if I knew English at the C2 level. I know the goal is really ambitious, but I really want to get this job. Even though I can't have this job right now, because my English is obviously far from being proficient, I am ready to work towards this goal and achieve a proficient level in a year. If I take into consideration the fact that I have enough time right now in order to achieve this goal, everything seems to be not so unrealistic. However, there is a big problem in front of me when it comes to my mental state and my life in general. The problem is not time, but my mental state that is often really bad. If I didn't have one problem in my life, everything would be so much easy for me to do and achieve that level wouldn't be a problem for me at all. So much of my energy is consumed by this problem that sometimes getting out of the bed seems to be a difficult task for me. I would prefer not to have this problem in my life, but unfortunately, some things are difficult to change. However, it doesn't mean that I will give up my dream. In no case, I'm going to give up on learning English. Learning languages and particularly English is on its own very enjoyable process for me. Sometimes writing or speaking in one of my target languages feels like a meditation. My brain relaxes and I forget my problems. Learning languages is not only a need for me, but it's also a way to relax. It's the precious thing that makes life worth living, and I am not exaggerating here. Even though life sometimes feels pretty hard, I think, I'm capable to do out of my favourite hobby my job. I will do it!!!