Today has been difficult emotionally, as usual. In the morning I simply skipped my workout, which is terrible because I didn't work out this week at all. But at my job, I was joyful and excited.

And right now I'm feeling numb, depressed, and antisocial. My mind keeps playing scenes of me working at Outback and as usual, I'm not speaking with anybody, even though part of me would like to. But the other part feels insecure, incapable, and extremely uncomfortable. My terrible social skills are part of what I call my "fatal flaw." They make makes me feel like a misfit, and it's painful.

I once was mentored by a guy who overcame social anxiety, antisociality, and all sorts of bad social skills. The results: I was much more talkative, I faced my biggest fears several times, I approached a bunch of women on the street and got their phone numbers. I was killing it. I'll save some money to be part of his mentorship program again.