This is my first post on this platform and I'd wish it were happier.

I am a Spanish native speaker but I've been journaling exclusively in English for a while because I don't want anyone at home to discover my diary and be actually capable to understand what I've written...

I already journaled today as I regularly do but I'm still feeling very very low. I've been going through a chronic depression since ever. I've been on medications in the past but didn't really make any difference. Instead, psychotherapy has been a relief but last night's session was very tough. I'm a Civil Engineer, 30, but been unemployed for several years. I started a Master's degree but was incapable of finishing it. I can't afford a living. My psychotherapist is giving me the sessions at a very low fare so I can continue with them and that makes me kinda sad. I live with my mother, sister and her children and life at home gets easily difficult. We are living in Africa and we are currently in irregular status, from a migration point of view. Jobs are difficult these days in the part of the world, especially because of COVID. I want to relocate but have no means to do it. I am feeling hopeless. This entry is neither helping. I hope I won't regret for publishing this, but none of my relatives nor friends will ever understand why I'm so depressed. My current situation is a consequence, not the reason why. They simply judge.

veesitao

I wish I were able to write a happier post today...