It's been a crazy month.

I finally managed to tell my therapist that her kind of therapy doesn't help me. This took a load of my mind and wallet.

My Turkish class might start this week - although I haven't heard anything from the teacher yet.

And I decided to stop writing and posting on Reedsy Prompts. I actually had the goal of posting for a year. I started in January this year, so I'm actually quite impressed by myself of having lasted that long.

I have a few writing projects I want to focus on. The pressure of having to post something every week - even if it's self-imposed - made it less fun for me to come up with stories. Often enough I had ideas while sitting at work, marking tests all day long. The brain is always looking for something more fun to do. But the last few weeks my brain has stopped giving me ideas. It felt like I tried squeezing a sponge without any water left inside. So, I'll give up. I had a good run and it was quite fun.

And if I'm being honest - I'm a bit miffed about the feedback as well. I know I'm a learner. Writing stories in English of course doesn't come naturally. My sentence structures are either slightly odd or repetitive, but I did my best. It's a huge crowd and most stories go unnoticed. It still sucks though to be a bottom feeder (not meaning opportunist, but lowest rank). If you just keep producing without any feedback how can you get better? The peer review thought doesn't work in this environment. It's a competition. And just because you like to write, doesn't mean that you enjoy reading other people's stories. I tried reading and commenting. But it's almost as time consuming as writing your own stories. So, obviously I dropped this practice as well.

Okay, my rant is over. I wasn't quite sure where my thoughts would lead me today. But apparently, this has weighing on my mind more than I thought. Hopefully, I can make my peace with it now and concentrate on my other 5.000.000 projects in my head :)