While reading a book extract about the interconnection of the movement and mental health, I suddenly realized that it is my way out of the situation that I've been stuck in for many years. I've always had a great amount of physical endurance. I remember enjoying the hard physical work that I did during the time I was living in the village by my grandmother. At those times I wasn't particularly interested in sports but living in a Russian village makes you accommodate yourself to hard physical work. So, I always enjoyed it being outside and working physically hard. As I moved to a city in order to study at university, I understood that not only my mind needs to be nourished with knowledge, but my body also needs to be strengthened through physical activity. So, I turned to exercising. But at this point, I didn't realize that it's the direct connection between my mind or my mental state and physical activity. This realization came after reading some scientific books and of course the direct experience of the positive emotions that I had after returning again to exercising (I had a break during which I didn't exercise, and I regret it). So, today I realized that my physical endurance is my way to start feeling strong not only physically but also mentally. Its my way to build up resilience, reclaim my life and belief that I'm capable to do things that the circumstances and my depression made me believe I'm incapable of.