FOMO: fear of missing out That's not what's happening to me. What scares me is not that I'm loosing things when I leave, is that they would start talking about me, it scares me that when I leave they would start critizicing me, hating me.

That they are going to realize how less I deserve the love they give me, their friendship and their time and then, they would leave me.

Does that mean that I don't trust people? No. I don't think so. I share a lot with people, sometimes, even more that I should. There is where the fear starts.

Maybe somebody misundestod what I said... Maybe I did or said something that bother or hurt somebody. And now it's when they gosship and talk about, when I'm not there to defend myself. When I can't do anything about it.

And since then everybody starts to hate me... again.

PS: Hey! Sorry if this is so depressing, hehehe. Sometimes, when I'm blue it helps me write my feeling. I'm also trying to be poetic so maybe it's more dark that it should be, sorry for that hehehe.