There are things I want to say to you.

I still miss you. Those happy days were already far beyond my reach. I know that I should not have any thoughts about what could have been. Or wish that things could be any more different.

I have done what I could the way I understood where life put me into. I've already stopped blaming you and anyone including myself for what happened.

I don't want to live my life hating the world that it is not how I want it to be. I want to live the remaining days accepting everything and everyone the way they are.

I'll find a way to keep what we had the way I want to remember us. That if everything changes, you remain inside me. A place where my right to love is not ripped off.

I'll take what's left to push through. Hush now, I'll carry us through.