Why am I feeling so low?

I care for people around me and try to spread smiles and happiness. Sometimes, I even go out of my way to help. Today I am feeling like why do I do that much because in some cases I do not feel that bond. There is a voice somewhere deep inside me, saying why do you not say no, if you do not want to do something or what are you getting in return?

Sometimes I wonder if I am becoming more of a people pleaser.

But then I negate it, saying that I live by an idea that you will recieve tenfold the love you spread around. But caring for people you love does not mean you can not say no.

I do not do any kind of prayer or visit any holy places because I think not hurting anyone , compassion for others and caring for others is a form of prayer.