Hi everyone! i hope everyone is having a great day, i'm new at this but i want to write this to meditate about my life and how is it going till now, because i'm really trying to do my best and to improve my life, fighting bad habits and vices that've been chasing me for years, but even if i've not failed for days i still feel empty, i guess i am at the beginning of the road, anyways, these last days i've been feeling kinda lonely, most of my friends doesn't talk to me if i don't talk first, and if i do they respond eight hours later, if they do, and of course i get they have their reasons, some of them have people that is more important for them and the other part is focusing on theirselves and their own objectives, i get it and i'm kinda happy for them, but i can't help feeling empty, you know, i always tried to be there for them, and i know that they don't have to know how i feel because i haven't told them yet, but an "how are you?" sometimes really makes the difference. But it's not that bad, i have one friend that has always been there for me, in my worst moments she was there and i'm very grateful to have met her.
I am also trying to study, to make myself good at something, but i also feel empty because i don't seem to have any particular and genuine interest for something, but i guess it won't come for me, i gotta go for it, and that's what i'm going to do, and i will try to use this site as a tool to discover it. I'll try to investigate different topics and then make a conclusion of them here, with that i hope and know that i'll find a topic of my interest and also i'll be able to improve my english, thank you for taking your time to read, i hope you are having a great, day, afternoon or night, whatever <3
We all need people to connect with and it hurts when we can’t depend on people whom we like, it hurts our feelings when they don’t treat us like we are important. I am glad you have at least one person you can depend on. Well, good luck and let us know if things continue like this or if maybe you figure out the magic to everlasting friendships.
I love your idea of trying to find an interest. You are right: they don't come for you, you have to discover them. Try to make a plan! Maybe you can choose one interest to explore each week or month! Make a note of how you feel when you are doing that activity. Sometimes you have to do something for awhile before it really grabs you. I am so interested to hear about your journey and best of luck!
I want to clarify that I am not very good with English, but I could not pass up the opportunity to congratulate you in this new stage, to congratulate you for leaving behind your fears, for being so brave, so worthy and as always so you, I will never regret meeting you, you are really an incredible person, I hope that nothing ever clogs your dreams, that you become your best version but above all never forget who you are, because that is truly important, I will always appreciate you :)