I woke up in a very bad mood today, I feel like time goes so fast and it frightens me. I'm 19 at the moment, and I feel so lost. I ignore how things will work out for me. However, I know the life I want for myself. I can imagine, the perfect job, the small but warm apartment I'll live in and even the swimming classes I'll be able to pay for myself. But I still have a lot of work to do. Also, talking with adults makes me feel so desperate. Everything seems very difficult, yet that's how life works. All I can do is to allow to myself to be miserable, awkward, ignorant in order for me to learn and grow and get myself the life I desire.💖🔮