Why hello there, people of the Internet.

I am back today with some thoughts, updates, news, however you wanna call it, of my twisted relationship with writing.

I talked a lot last time about how I struggled to write in my native language, and I am happy to announce that I finally managed to write a couple of paragraphs I actually like! It took me a long time to figure it out, and, truth be told, I think my recent readings in French have helped. I mostly read stuff in English nowadays, so it seems a tad more natural to me than my native language, but anyway, I managed.

Today though, I want to talk about something different. The writing process.

I don't really know about you, but I'm definitely not the type of person to plan anything before actually starting to write. I have a vague idea of where I want to go, and what might happen in the story, but I do change my mind a lot, as I always seem to find ideas more fitting to my characters as I get to know them better and better with each passing day. Turns out, I daydream a hell of a lot about my story, but I barely write a line. Writing is a pleasure, one of my biggest hobbies since I'm like... twelve, and I don't want to ruin it by pressuring myself into writing. It's not always easy, as productivity seems to be the key-word of our society, but I don't really think only daydreaming about my story is less productive than actually writing it. Turns out that I write with way more efficiency when I'm satisfied with the image in my mind, because I know where to go and how to go there.

I struggled a lot with that at first, as I absolutely wanted to write stuff, but it was a real pain in the ass to just rewrite the same sentence twenty times because I couldn't settle on an action or an emotion and how to describe it. Daydreaming is, to me, the perfect remedy. I let my characters do their own stuff and react however they want to various scenarios, and when I feel like I've grasped what's truest to their personality, I write it down.

This leads to another... point. There is no way in hell I'll ever manage to write a story chronologically. My WIP is composed of paragraphs, sentences and tiny scenes (I sometimes even have two versions of them, one in French and one in English), that probably won't ever end up in the actual story, but it doesn't matter. It's a good exercise, I get to know my characters, and I get to understand how I write, what I like and how to improve my writing. Even if that means my document is a mess, to say the least.

Anyhow, that's the thing I like about writing. It's wild and unrestricted. We can do whatever we want, and that's absolutely beautiful.