I'm 27 years old now (my birthday was few days ago) and I'm worried about the future. Yes, I know: it's normal for young people to be scared and insicured, and sometimes we are too impatient. However, these are the years (from 25 and 30) when we try to find who we really want to be. And also for those who already know which way to take, the worries are a lot and the anxiety high. And if you are a recent graduate in cultural and arts field in Italy you inevitably feel lost, because it seems that there aren't any opportunities to become indipendent one day with your dream job. And dream is to be a cultural journalist. And... italian journalism has been in crisis for many years now.

They say (the adult, but now I'm adult too... help me!) that you have to keep searching for a permanent position, but in the world where now we live, "permanent position" in cultural and journalism field doesn't exist anymore. How can I explain it to them? How can I explain that my anxiety concerns to be able to find a way to be what I want to be as a freelencer and not to find a permanent position? I really would like to reach economic and labour stability, but I know that it will take time. But I'm 27 now and I would like to have at least the certainty that I'm going in the right directions.

My parents are calm about my present and my future: they belive in me more than I belive in myself. So it's really good, and I'm grateful for this. They tell me to never give up; they tell me that even if I'm working a lot on little projects with low income, is good: I'm young, I have time and I have to be patient. «Now - they say - you are working on the basement of your dream». I suppose that they are right. But I'm still worried about the future and sometimes I feel frustrated: I do a lot of really beautiful activities, but I recive too low income compared to the hours of working; so low that I'm not able to open a Partita IVA because is too expensive. Another problem for those who wants to work in cultural field is exatly that: they want you to be a freelencer, but freelencers can't sustain themselves and they don't have any protection.

So, yes, it's true: I'm impatient and pessimistic by nature. But the problems in the field where I wish to work exist and are really worring and confusing. May I be just unsatisfied? Probably, even because of the pandemic, that limits our freedom. But I'm even a stubborn person: I will alway keep fighting for my indipendence and dreams. Otherwise I would lose myself.

Is this a glimmer of optimism? WOW!