I agree that the word addiction could maybe sound a little bit overstated and be somehow intimidating, but as we say in Frensh "il faut appeler un chat un chat" (you have to call a cat a cat), it is what it is, I am addicted to coffee! For me, you can start using this world as soon as you lose control over your consumption of something. For instance, I am meant to do some workout in an hour from now. Therefor, I am not supposed to drink coffee since I know that it could have bad effects on my cardiac function as well as blood pressure and lead to something I definitely want to avoid. However, I don’t know why or how, but I found myself sitting in front of my screen, writing this very text with a cup of coffee on my left (and a big one by the way! 😅). That is what I definitely call a true and real addiction, isn't it?

If you ask me, I wouldn't be able to tell you accurately what is it that I actually enjoy in drinking this beverage. Is it the taste? Well, I don't think so at all, simply because I remember being way more younger, mimicing my parents behaviours by for exemple finishing their coffee leftovers after lunch. I found it almost disgusting back in the day! Even if I have probably shifted my mind about this specific aspect as I got older, I stil don't think that what makes me so attrackted to it is actually its flavour. It doesn’t make sens for me.

Maybe it is the effect it has on my body? Here again, I am not sure at all. We all know has caffeine could help on keeping us awake and the role it plays on making us way more focus on our work for exemple. That might be true in overall, however it has never worked out for me. I have tryed it more than once, mainly when I was at the university during the exams periode, but it never went as I was expecting. It didn't prevent me from falling asleep in the middle of a late revision session, and I never noticed even a slight improvment regarding my concentration. So here again, I don't think this is the genuine explanation.

I have been reflection about it for so long, because I thought that understanding how I am so attached to this habbit would help me to better manage my coffee consumption, instead of staying totaly powerless and letting myself led by who knows what force! After many back and forth, I believe I finaly came out with an assumption that makes sens, at least for me. How did I came out with it is that I visualized myself going throught this ritual, and what I understood is that it has nothing to do with the flavour. In fact, it has neither nothing to do with the coffee itself! In reality, my cup of coffee is just a tool amid many other, that set the stage to a certain mindset, a certain peace of mind. Indeed, when I am at home, after having had a shower, a casual pyjama put on, good music in my ears and of course my cup of fresh coffee, I am ready to spend an enjoyable moment.

I assume that we all have this kind of ritual. In fact, we all have a balance that we strive to maintain everyday without necessarily paying attention to our behaviours or being totaly aware about it, in order to put ourselves in the best conditions, basically to enjoy our time and thrive. For some of us it could be spending time with family and freinas, for another it might be working hard, chasing a good career and hustling. Apparently, coffee plays a huge role in my balance.☕️