Cold weather is annoying and so is hot weather. I can be annoying too.

I can go outside and enjoy the sunshine and watch the beautiful nature around me, but not today.

I woke up on the wrong side of the bed and I should change this mood. I don't know how to do it. I can take a shower or do some skincare, but it's a little difficult to get up. I can just read a book or listen to music, but no. I don't feel like doing anything. I can't say it's my hormones. It's just me thinking about the things that I should let God take care of.

Why can't I sleep more? I don't exercise, get sunshine, see my friends or do interesting stuff. I guess I've gotten cabin fever. I should remind myself *Rumi's poem "The Guesthouse" and think this is a guide from beyond. Yeah, it sounds nice in writing, but I can't wrap my head around it in real time.

* The Guesthouse

This being human is a guest house.

Every morning a new arrival.

A joy, a depression, a meanness,

some momentary awareness comes

as an unexpected visitor.

Welcome and entertain them all!

Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows,

who violently sweep your house

empty of its furniture,

still, treat each guest honorably.

He may be clearing you out

for some new delight.

The dark thought, the shame, the malice,

meet them at the door laughing,

and invite them in.

Be grateful for whoever comes,

because each has been sent

as a guide from beyond.