When I shared my plan with friends, I felt like they were judging me. Their responses made me feel unsupported. Should I keep on track, or find a lucrative job? I am having doubts about myself. For as long as I remember, I did anything out of my comfort zone, leading to who I am now. A woman with a master's degree still gets confused with her mission and goal in life. I can continue my current career path until the end of my life. But I know how boring it might be and how many struggles I am going to face over the years. How do I insist on my way? How do I believe in myself?
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Dear Mitmut, I can totally relate to know. I have been studying a specific field for almost ten years now and I am starting to doubt myself. Doubt if I have made the right decision. Maybe, the problem is not the job itself but the company you're working in. I have experienced it myself. I graduated in Chinese language and literature, but when I started working at a Chinese bank in my country, I suffered so much that I started hating the language, the culture and everything related to China. My boss used to bully me. Now I am working in another company, a Brazilian company, that has business with China. I still use Chinese language everyday, but I have a great boss, a great team and even though the job is not my passion, it is not making me suffer anymore. I wish you all the best luck in the world and I am sure you'll achieve happiness. I send you a warm hug. 🤗
It can be really hard to believe in ourselves and make decisions like these. Personally, I find religion helps me with both. I believe God made me and truly loves me so if I turn to him he will help me find a way. He can help me find people that will support me and change me into a healthier person. He knows what truly is going to make me happy more than I do. If he can see good in me I can believe in myself and make whatever I change I need to. I hope you can make your decision. I wish you the best and will be praying for you.
@Tried_penguin, thanks for your warm hug. I recently made a decision to quit my current job in July. Try to find a job abroad after taking a short break. :)
@Molly49, thanks for your kind words. I had a religion before. I found that I would use it as an excuse to do nothing and just day-dreaming. Maybe I believed in it the wrong way.