Hello, guys!
I don't wanna look like an idiot but maybe I don't like my family too much. I shouldn't say it, right? I know, but let me explain it.
First thing first, I don't hate them. Not completely. Sometimes we’re having a good moment, we're all laughing etc. However, sometimes they say things that make me think: Shit! How can you be so racist?
What it’s fascinating about all this is: I am I and they are they. How can it be possible? Because they took care of me all my life but I’m different - sometimes I’m very similar and it annoys me - but in general, I’m different of them.
When I’m sad or just tired of all this bullshit they’re always saying I think that I want to be alone, because I like to be alone, in silence…but I’ll be honest with you when I’m silence I stay saying things in my mind so I’m never silence. Then, how can I say that I really like to be in silence if I probably never did it before?
It isn't a great post, but I just wanted to write about this stuff. Thank you for reading!!
-R
I can relate, I also have mixed feelings about my family! We were raised together but at the same time we were exposed to different environments at school and with friends so that's probably why we are different now! For me the key is finding a good balance between having a close relationship with positive family members and keeping a healthy distance from those who kinda hurt me. I hope you will find it too!
@jadwiga yeeees! I also try to keep that relationship with myrelatives. I'm pretty close to some, but I don't ignore others, just casual conversations, casual hangouts in order to keep balance, neither too much affection nor showing I care about them :3
Jajajaja, I relate definitely 🙈🙈 the case is about machismo, I mean, we live in 21th century and maybe I don't wanna be a babysitter or a private chef and cleaner for my husband? Maybe I don't wanna have a husband at all? Eh? But definitely there're more than that. And I haven't quite get what you're saying about being alone? Could u explain to me? :0 If I get it right so far , then I can relate too🐢🐢🐢
@tortuguita_ninjita, what i tried to say was: i think that i like to be silent, but actually i’m never truly silent because in my head i’m always thinking or “saying” things. so how can i say that i like to be quiet if I probably never really did it before? it’s a little bit confusing. haha