Lately, since May specifically, I've been questioning what I am doing with my life and if it is what I want to do in the future. I'm 18 and I am in the middle of my professional career. Last semester was difficult for me, not academically but emotionally, I was just not feeling like myself, and everything lost sense. I started to think and feel that this career is not what I want, that I need something else, and after thinking a lot for some weeks I found out that there were things that I didn't dare to do or learn in the past because I was insecure and probably now it's the moment to give them an opportunity and see what happens.
The thing is that it's not that easy, in some way I feel that I can't stop my career because it would be chaos in my family but at the same time I'm investing a lot of time in my studies and university when in fact I'm not that interested and that time that I spend in my classes I could use it to start these new activities that I want to try and maybe if I like them, start a career from that. Also, I would like to pay myself the classes to learn these new things but getting a job that fits with my university classes right now is hard, I feel that I need to keep trying, save money, and meanwhile see if there are some ways to learn what I want with free options or something.
I don't know, I want to change my life in order to feel better and happier but also I think: maybe I should finish this career or keep studying it until I have more economic independence and then do what I want because telling my parents that I want to pause or stop the career they been paying for, well, seems like something really difficult that I'm not sure I want to deal with at this moment, not without some economic stability.
That's all, I just needed to get these thoughts out. If there is someone reading this, thank you and I would really appreciate a piece of advice or something. If not it's ok.
Hi Joha, Well, first of all, your writing looks very good! The only real problem you have is a lot of run-on sentences. For example, the second-to-last paragraph is all one sentence, when it should be broken into 3 or 4. (English sentences are often shorter than Spanish sentences).
As far as your plans... I don't know where you live, but at least in the U.S., I think it is a really good idea to take a few years off after high school and get some work experience before college/university. Even though the job will be entry level, it still helps to see the real world and appreciate the opportunity for education more. At least that's what I told my kids...
And of course there are many things that you can at least start to learn online for free or low cost... computer programming for example, but also many others. It depends on what you want to do.
Good luck with everything!!
Hi! If you're half way through, I recommend finishing. You're much younger than you realise, even though you're clearly very bright, having a sense of meaninglessness in the middle of one's degree is not uncommon, but if you're close to finishing, finish it, and then take time off and do something completely different. I left university with that feeling and i'm glad after a few weeks away I returned and finished my degree. You can always do a completely different one afterwards or find new opportunities. Many of my friends found their jobs doing a second degree, even later in life. Several people I know did a whole degree, and then went back at 25 to do a medical degree. Hang in there, talk about it for sure, but try to realise this degree and finishing it need not define your life, but it will make it considerably easier to become financially independent and then you can do whatever you want.